connecting the dots . . .

"All the events in the nature are for a purpose and are linked together....... um well in simpler code ," everything happens for a reason ". I m not being philosophical ,the last ten days provide me enough reasons for not being philosophical . Its all about connecting the dots... though its not a James bond thing but it takes lot of sands to actually decode the heavenly plans..and when you do that, you feel like Bond..James bond !! The key to this mission is... you just have to wait and watch unless and untill you are not at the end of the road you cannot connect the dots,once you look back at the past you start connecting every damn thing that has had happened to you...

a)I always wanted to be an electronics engineer , since the time i even did not know what engineer is..! when i got old....old enough to understand the terms like electronics and engineer... b)I found out that its quite hard in fact almost impossible for me to crack exams like AIEEE ( i cant even dare to write about IIT-JEE) I was disappointed..i hated the feeling .. nevertheless I made into Delhi university... i always liked computers ( second priority after electronics ..u know plan B) c)I wished to take comp sci hons in any college of D.U. but somehow i ended up in Hans raj ,with simple bsc. with computers...later when i realized i m more into computers...i regretted my decision .... i hated it...i cursed GOD ( sorrryyyyyy) ...d) I there in my hostel met Saurabh and saniket (army aspirants) I came to know about the world of defense... e) I channelized the passion and i applied .... and life there continued ( exams ...dance ...girls...fun...) but deep inside i was always worried about what next... where am i gonna fit in?? whats there for me in the box?? with all these question unanswered ..almost a year went off ... f)I appeared in SSB ( the army selection stuff) got selected and g) i m planning to opt electronics there...

So, the morale of the story... no matter how much my plans got deviated from the ideal path.. i ended up quite fine .. now when i connect the dots... all the points a,b,c,d,e,f,g make sense and if any point is neglected then mission "connecting the dots" would certainly fail...but they say.. bond never fails ;-) Hence proved ,everything happens for a reason and for your good.. i understood ... how about you???

The ultimate victory- World cup

The A-factor

I m not into numerology .....but cant help it when things tend to come true based upon the previous predictions !!! One of my friend's mom,who is btw an astrologer-cum-numerologists has told me that my life goes good with a people having 'a' n 'g' as their initials ... um-mm well, lets analyse it ! for those who knw me i guess very well know the A factor in my life till now...i cant say wdr it justified the prediction or not. But the new A factor ,** Nd let me be clear, it is hell not same as far as the characteristic feature of the relation is concerned** can metaphorically be considered as "THE RESCUE TEAM"!! well the name of the team is ,the girl who has toyed with a simple toy "an aeroplane " ,waved around in the air and has swept many off their grounds *imma victim as well* Abhishi khubele ,a pilot by profession ,a beauty by default ,a Saviour by choice ....well this blog doesnt go out to make an impression ,i promised nd i m executing *which though happens quite less* . . . All the introspection thing,some hard confessions left my world shaken ,i was like on a crashing plane and she gave me the parachute ... when i was feeling blue she just gave the right moral boost... she technically pulled me outta the deep sea of guilt .... i dont know whether the reason for which we are friends is justified enough ... i dont know whether its a result of my "low condition and her kind heart" ... as a matter of fact i dont care as long as she is even putting her 1 percent in the *friendship* thing but yeah i am at same time not sure about the survival age of this relation !!The reason is -"different plane of thinking , interests,perceptions may be because of the age gap,which makes her more mature and puts her in a stream of taking me just as a nice kid rather than a nice friend " !!I m a kid *technically* in her frame of reference or may be *practically* in every one's frame of refrence but i will try to play cool and hold on to her expectations . But the sands of time only will tell whether all my fears come true or "we" pilot around 'em safely !! i m sorry if u are disappointed

after reading this but i m just being honest ! PEACE

the new symbolic haircut

I hav never got so much of attention b4 , in the clg,thanks to da new hairstyle,actually itz hardly a style itz jus a brutal-hair-cut-cum-hair-disaster......*The almost Ghajini look* ..People ,my friends n friends of friends to be mor precise walked by me lyk imma ghost... Nobody literally nobody cud recognize the real me in da fst eyeballing session.....well yeah with all d lies i hav bin living with,nobody has actually got thru the mask nd recognized me.....they kept asking y da hell i did dat to myslf i.e the haircut....i got lost for a moment..... it ws just abt a haircut Nd i easily cem up wid stupid reasons bt when dey vl ask y da hell i kept lying...dn it wud b interesting to c my response,i evn doubt if i cud com up with ne valid rezn !!!! neverthless,all da hairs i lost symbolises all da relations,all da bad habits i lost or on da verge of lozin..... i m no doubt starting all over agen bt da question is will i b abl to??? i behaved a bit alien to monika nd she cried......so wot i draw is, one i cant leav ppl lyk dis most importantly the ppl i meet daily, two i nid to tell em da truth,three i cant afford to be hated by da ppl ( i meet daily) fr a healthy n non-embarrassing environment wic wud happen aftr following two *short term trouble* ,four i nid to stick to wot i hav decided *long term benefits* five m screwed !!!

introspection- the ugly truth

AND the guy with gun said to the girl,"i may die today , but what matters is when at end you ask yourself "are u proud of whatever u did??" and ur conscience says " hell yeah" and i cn hear it,so i m happy" !!! Though itz nt my end bt wen ask this to myself,i just dont hear that roger thing!!!!! this blog space has been abt xplorin the unxplored...so b4 xploring ne thng else i thnk i shud xplore myself.....!!! Here it goes, well the list is quite long....to start with....i hav bin lyng ovr n vr agn n agn.....b4 i din knw y m i lyk dis....bt nw sinc the mission introspection is ON i vry well knw y? the most basic rezn is i dun hav guts to face the cons. wic cud spring out after the true beans are spilled...there isnt a single persn who knws all the truth abt me ....i m scared i dun no why bt i m..... i hav bin lying to my frnds ,though dey dun know abt it...okay lets take an xample....i had a girlfriend named saba...how xactly she became my gf...?? if i hadnt lied on this questn i wudnt hav manu nd some othr ppl in my life....!!! y i din go fr bits pilani??? hadnt i lied on this i wudnt hav monika kajal vinay rashi shewta rahul in my life.....i hav bin playing alot with people's emotion ,a lot !!!! what xactly i thnk of diksha n priya ??? oh man i hav bin lying on this lyk a tank full of water !!!! y i broke up with astha??? well i wudnt evn dre to write this here nd nd y i still want to be in touch with her?? i dare not to evn thnk of it...!!!! one lie aftr the other just made me ths way...things worked if i lied so i thot this is the only solution bt nt ne mor.... i want to be a bettr prsn nd repent bt the thng is if i at this point of tym shoot the truth no doubt i'd b a bttr person bt i'd b surely hell lonley!!! tough call!!!

last nyt i thot ovr n ovr nd found a way....i m gonna start all over again bt dis tym will earn ppl with truth!!! sinc almst all the relations i hav are upon the dead bodies of lies,i declare em null n void!!!! if i confront all da truth ,thn obviously they will move out with hell loads of hatred,wic is i guess nt acceptabl,so i vl jus walk away...... evn aftr all da evnts nd introspection i dun hav the courage to confess...bt rome wasnt built in a day,nd i vl too gradually devlop the courage fr a truthful future.... sorry if i had hurt sum1 ,bt dis tym i m just being honest to myslf !!!! nd fr mor such honest confession i vl kip bloggin ! PEACE!